I am so fucking triggered tonight.
It is Thanksgiving Eve and I am is obsessed about him.
Where is he? Who might he be with? Is he out doing someone off Craigslist or is he
starting over with the new younger version of “Lexi” already. Complete with 5 hour phone conversations
like he used to do with me that lasted til we both fell asleep til 5 am.
……oh Jesus Mary and Joseph….help me.
his heart is already dead, and mine……keeps right on beating.
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In AA they have Al-ka-thons.
Don’t they have obsess-athons for me so I don’t think about him all night? It’s the mother fucking Holidays for fucks sake.
Everywhere you look people are holding hands and kissing and public displays of affection abound.
It feels like life is dousing vinegar into my gaping wound. My heart is breaking into a million shards of glass.
Mother fucking fuck.
I HATE THIS SHIT !