I contacted him.
It’s always follows the same fucking pattern.
It begins well.
Starts out civilised.
Moves into discord and tension building.
Old wounds flare up and more tension mounts.
He blows his stack, screams at me at the top of his lungs and calls me denigrating names and humiliates me,
I burst into tears.
He yells at me for crying then says he has to go because he has another hook up to get to.
Which always leads to excruciating pain, and me feeling emotionally kicked.
Everytime I think I have hit bottom,
there’s a new bottom.