So I’ve started reading the Bible again. I’ve also started praying again. I made a mental list of people with whom I am angry or resentful and that I need to forgive. It’s odd because as I was making my list I came to the realization that I, am on said list. How strange? I have not been able to forgive myself. In some ways it has proven more difficult to forgive myself than others. However, I am going to stick with this and see it through until I forgive everyone.
Reading the Bible has been slow going. It’s not like reading other material. Questions often come up. I don’t have anyone to bounce things off. I wish I belonged to a Church. I wish I was in a Bible study. I feel like I am in a good place to do that right now. It helps to feel connected in a faith community. That is my next step, to find a Church in which to worship.
This liitle hymn popped into my head tonight. What a pleasant surprise. I haven’t heard this since I went to Catholic Mass years ago. I’m not sure why it came to me? I believe that everything happens for a reason. It brought back a lot of fond memories. The choir sings this particular hymn before the Gospel is read during Mass. This hymn is one that is chosen during the observance of Lent, which begins on Ash Wednesday (March 6th) and goes through til Easter Sunday in April. On Ash Wednesday, parishioners come up to the alter and the priest rubs ashes on their forehead in the sign of the cross. The ashes are made from burning the palm leaves from the Palm Sunday Mass the previous year, As the parishioners comes to the alter, the priest makes the cross on their forehead, and either says,” turn away from sin and be faithful to the Gospel,” or “’Remember that you are dust and to dust you will return.” I always liked Ash Wednesday because it was an outward sign of my inward faith. A time to focus inward, a time to fast in rememberance of the ultimate sacrifice the Lord Jesus Christ made for our sins
Perhaps this is a sign from God that I am on the right track with my choice to seek Him. For me to turn away from a life of sin and be faithful to the Gospel. It was such a blessing to hear this hymn in my mind. I went ahead and searched for it on YouTube and sure enough I found it. I am really looking forward to turning my life around for 2019.
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