What do you see in the ink blot?
The Rorschach test is a projective psychological test in which subjects’ perceptions of inkblots are recorded and then analyzed using psychological interpretation.
I remember when the test was given to me at 19. I was in the psych hospital for a suicide attempt. I felt hopeless and empty had been for a long time.
At first, I thought about screwing with the tester, albeit briefly, then changed my mind because I was suffering immensely.
He informed me,”I am going to hold up a card and you will just tell me the first thing that comes to mind. Okay?”
card goes up with black ink image only
“Okay, I forgot to mention that you can say anything except for inkblot.”
“butterfly with goat head”
“weird looking bug with skull face”
“Moth with fangs”
card w/ black + red ink image
2nd card black/red
3rd card black/red
“well of you want me to look at it as a whole, I see a giant head, but within the upper right corner there is a a goat head with horns, over here in the bottom left there is this sort of devil creature, at the very top I see a baby’s face.”
Tester takes copious notes while I speak then packs up his cards. Day or so later, I get slapped on Prozac and diagnosed with depression. Wasn’t that apparent from the suicide attempt? I’m kind of glad I didn’t screw with the tester. I could have ended up on massive amounts of Thorazine drooling and shuffling around like the other blokes aimlessly wandering about that smelled of piss and cigarettes.
My roommate’s depression was so severe that it didn’t respond to medication so they had to strap her down and take her to the basement for ECT aka Shock therapy. I think she had bilateral (both sides of her brain) zapped to induce the seizure. She came back looking like Sigourney Weaver had sucked her brain out with a straw and there was nothing left. She had that 1000 yard stare, empty eyes that penetrate straight through you.
She never did remember me for a few days after she got cooked, despite having known me for nearly a month. I was always jealous though because ECT patients got to have coffee and Dunkin Donuts after the switch was thrown.
So if you eat your donut and drink your coffee and enjoy it but don’t remember you do, did it really count? It’s almost like they never got their coffee and donuts.
What do I see in the blot doctor? Big Pharma profiting from human suffering.